"We need to talk."

Have gone mushy out of the blue. Haha oh well. :)

“We need to talk.”

Always that line.

Always that tone.

Even if you never hear as I only sent it through the phone.

I wanted to talk, wanted to hear

Your voice saying everything between us is clear.

A simple text would have been okay

Just once was enough

I never meant every minute of the day.

I was never the imposing kind,

I never wanted to make you feel caged and confined.

But clearly, that was just too much to ask.

Your hands were just too full of unfinished tasks.

You never run out of reasons and just like that,

I was just the shirt, taken off, just because it’s no longer in season.

It seemed a lifetime ago

when you were just the boy who told me he has always loved me so.

Always thoughtful, always full of care

Always has time for me to spare.

Whatever happened to that boy I once knew

Who faithfully waited and worried even if it was just the simple flu?

Whatever happened to the sweet words partaken and exchanged?

Don’t tell me they were only words to fill up the space.

Don’t tell me they were only moments mindlessly spun into place.

I should have known

I was only a mere conquest,

Another prize to be won,

Another badge to your crest.

Just like all the other girls you tease

With your smile full of charm enough to buckle anyone’s knees.

They tell me I am foolish and that I would never deny

I am still eager to listen and give us another try

But waste this chance and there will be no more

We will then just be another closed door.

Lost Stars

It's getting late, the world's falling into dreams

           Not I perhaps, my eyes still gleam

           For all that's lost and for what they're worth

           Simple tears or treasures in earth.

I do not know why but still I do

           I'll always find myself wishing for you

           The stars, they've aligned, but alas, not for me

           Not for you nor for us-- nothing of glee.

Oh, you seem so close, but still galaxies far away
          I never held your heart; you were never one to stay
          Your eyes look in mine but those glances were all it took
           For me to know I was not one for your books

I must, I know, let go but alas I could not
          You had me twisted in an unfathomable knot
           A girl can dream, yes but these dreams---
           They only last for so long, so it seems.

I can only wait, wish and hope once more
          That you'll come and knock on my door
          Asking for me to stay and I alone----
          What harm there is to dream and wish on stars
              that shine and have always shone?

It's The Little Things

your empty words

I am not a princess,

I would never be.

In your eyes I might be perfect

but please, there isn't much to see.

Don't tell me I am pretty;

Please spare me of those lies.

I had enough of words,

Let no tears fall again from my eyes.

Once is enough,

I would not dare do the same

Never shall I trip again

with your perfectly phrased claims.

Please don't shower me with your words,

I might just make another mistake

of falling into your clever traps

and leaving my heart unguarded,

easy to manage, easy to break. 

Last Conversation

One day, you and i will see again.
   In what particular time, I know not when
   Yet for now, I'd rather not
   Have another reminder of  those twisted knots.

Let me be, give me time
   Let me look for the perfect rhyme.
   Hard as it might be, I have to face
   You are no longer with me in this race.

Now, go and find your heart's desire
    I cannot fulfill and transpire
    I wish you happiness
    Even if it is no longer with my caress.

Setting Him Free

It takes courage to take that step further, to say yes to the question of commitment, and to agree on things you thought you would never understand. Still, it takes courage to put an end to those memories, to bid goodbye to every little thing done together, and to walk away from the life you once shared. 

Maybe I'm wrong. Maybe I'm right. I would never know. Still, I faced my fears. I faced the prospect of hearing the music without its sweet melody, of dancing without grace, of seeing life alone and without you. 

Am I brave enough? Is it enough courage to take every tiny step away from the person who matters most?

Only time would tell. 

The Cliché

You know that you are special,
   my half, my other twin.
   but time is not with us,
   it seems it has never been.
 
I know it isn't easy
   but perhaps it's for the best.
   I just need to be alone.
   Can we stop for a while and give it a rest?

My heart is not yet ready
    for this battle so soon.
    Maybe someday it will be,
    but right now it's singing out of tune.

You have heard it long before,
    perhaps many times more.
    It's not you, it's me.
    I am not yet your heart's key.
   

Limits

Deep within, I know I am hoping for what cannot be,
   something that can never be more than a dream.
   What I feel whenever you are together
   shouldn't be how it seems.

It seems that you are happy and thus I should be too
   even if those smiles are never meant for us two.
   I shouldn't feel so empty whenever you forget
   about our trips. You are with her, I bet.

I know I have no right over what I still feel,
   Things I should have said and not just left concealed.
   It is too late, too late for me to try and make it real
   I'll tuck them away, from the world completely sealed.

I promise I'd keep my silence, I'd always be around
   I'll be the one to listen without bound.
   I know it hurts but what I feel will stay
   As much as I try to will it away.