Sunday, November 23, 2014

all the things we do for love

It's amazing how much love can push you.

Love wakes you up on a Saturday morning even if all you wanted to do is catch up on some snooze.

It can make you hurry to beat the deadline just because you want to give what is just and due.

Love lets you survive the entire day even when you never batted an eye for sleep.

Love can help you withstand the scorching afternoon heat and keep you dancing despite the complaints of your sore feet.

Even if your throat starts to burn and your face turns all red, 
still with your voice so small,
     you never give up and remain to stand tall.

Others would wonder and never fail to ask 
"Why keep up and do such a tedious task?"
With all its troubles and pressing demands, why bother to actually lend a hand?

You can only smile, you can only nod.
There, there. They cannot look once and just understand.

This love, it has burned steadily for years
It was this path you've chosen; it has seen your fears.
Why give up now when the journey's just getting started?
Why leave when you're already on your stead?

It might be tough and dear me, the roads are still going to be rough.
But I'm holding on, counting on this little voice,
"As long as you are happy, as long as you know you still can, trust your choice."



The CSIW CORE 2014 hopes to see you there! :)

Thursday, November 20, 2014

aint I wiity?

Admit it.

I am so witty you can't handle it. :P

acads + org = no time for anything else

I've been putting off writing. It's not that I don't want to but then there's just my CORE work, begging me to finish it before the event proper.

 Would you believe that we only have 27 days before CSIW? :)))



Basically, my time has just been divided to almost just two categories: ACADS and ORG WORK. If there wasn't any homework due the next day, then good! More time for Sessions! :) I honestly don't know if I'm ready to face 819 kids (+ parents + teachers) . Believe it or not, I still get the jitters. I might have been under the spotlight for most of my life but that doesn't mean I don't get nervous.

I worry about the little things like..
  • completing forgetting the steps to the dance I've practiced over and over again (this happens)
  • dead air ----- WHAT DO I DO NOW?
  • the kids won't like me ---- gawd that is possible
  • I'll be like Ariel when she traded her fins for a pair of legs--- oh let me SURVIVE CSIW WITHOUT LOSING MY VOICE
Gosh. 27 more days and it's showtime! G! 

*If you think I've been babbling about little chickens, that's okay. Really though, CSIW = Children's Science Interactive Workshop--- one of the big national events PSYSC has been organizing for years.  CORE= I'm part of the organizing team :) Check more about the org and its events here!

Well, rundown of what kept me on my toes for the past few days

Class has started but that didn't keep us from seeing all those movies! My wallet's got thinner though huhu. Still, they were worth it! 

Bea: "Ay nako, pag kasama si Ella, laging may photo shoot." :P
  •  I know I had acads and all but I couldn't help it. I am a stage sister after all. Wouldn't miss seeing my brother perform! Good job, 14A!
  • Spontaneous gala and random dinners! My lakwatsera self cannot handle staying indoors for a looooong time.
"unplanned" dinner out! (because tricia has her car hihi)
  • Office worknight and staff training for CSIW! Well,it has been x months since I've gone back to the National Office. Maybe a new environment would be good for productivity. :)

I would love to add photos not featuring me but then I would have exposed the workshops by then! (So NO. You'd have to keep up with pictures OF me and my friends who surprisingly still accept me despite this fact haha)
  • Been writing poetry again! :)))) Suppose the med life isn't for me, maybe words would be the answers to my dreams haha

I guess that's it. :) Back to work then!

Friday, November 7, 2014

panic mode

"Umm Ella. Di ba sa ten pa ang pasok? Bakit ang busy at stressed mo na?"

Oh who wouldn't? I've got six more days to fulfill all my deliverables.


I can't believe I still had time to write this down but I have to let it out. Dear me. People might be wondering why I chose to stress myself over making quiz questions and looking for ways to keep the program running. Oh I could just say no. I could just stop and give up. 

But I couldn't.

I love the organization, the thrill it has every time our national events come close, the activity the planning brings, the fulfillment each time you see the participants smile and say, "Ate, thank you po! Nag-enjoy kami!" I love the people behind the fuss. I love what we stand for.

Six more days. Yes, I'm still panicking, freaking out even. Still, it's just another deadline I could beat. #YesToPositiveThinking

So here's to giving the kids the best camp they'll ever experience! 38 more work days and hello, Pampanga!

Monday, November 3, 2014

being home after a year

I told myself I would be writing more over the break.

Who was I kidding?

Of course, I had decent internet too but who has time for the net when there is sleep? That was basically what I did most at home. When there weren't any plans of going somewhere or meeting the old friends, you'll find me underneath the sheets, desperately catching sleep I really missed over the stressful semester. Others would say I should have gone out more, seeing it has been a year since I've actually been home. Nope, all those sembreak plans didn't actually push through. (It didn't help most of my batchmates weren't back home *sigh) Moreover, the town was never the same after that horrible typhoon. It felt like exploring a new terrain. It was amazing, sad and exciting all at the same time.

Did I mention it was also the first time I traveled alone?(Yep but that is for another post. I believe it would be too much for you, Dear Reader, for me to condense everything in just one entry. Say, wouldn't it be too tedious and too boring to read?) The experience was amazing! (albeit its delays and minor mishaps. Oh yes, I'm talking about you, Cebu Pacific.) It just makes me look forward to seeing the world soon. (YES GOALS :P)

Being home ignited the memories of high school, with all the joys and the pain. Still, being back in the small town brought comfort to the soul. Despite everything, I miss waking up to the rooster's crow and the scent of Mom's cooking (along with her occasional nagging to hurry up if we don't want to be late for school.) I miss walking home at dusk when I am not able to catch the company bus making its rounds and I lack the patience to wait for another. I miss working on crafts. I miss seeing familiar faces albeit the yearly drama that always seems to involve me. I miss the province along with what it has to offer and what it cannot. No matter how much I deny it, I miss home.

There is so much to write! Honestly, I could have gone on and on typing about what happened during that hiatus from school but there is also so much to do. By leaving for the break, I actually put off doing my CORE work for CSIW, the science camp for kids we are currently organizing. It's only a month from now and I really have to clutch. I do not want to settle for less. The kids deserve only the best. :)

I'll finish this workload (I was supposed to do it a while ago but I got stuck in the manual registration for one class. Talk about hassle and stress. ) and write more soon! But for now, I have to do that CSIW dance. Huhu so much for abandoning my dance career in grade school. Still, G!
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