the lifeline

You know how I've been. If you have been dropping by my blog lately, you'd know how stressed I am with Org Chem, how I worry about not getting past that QPI, how I am not being on my best self. My past posts haven't been quite a ray of sunshine I hoped to be. Oh dear heavens, you know (well, most people do) that I'm never the kind of girl who sulks and grumbles. Still, I don't know. Maybe it was just the schoolwork. Maybe it was just not seeing the results I wanted. Nevertheless, I knew I needed a break. 

And luckily, I found one.

Chelsea (and okay, Kuya Lorenz, too) has been bugging me to join this camp. I was hesitant, of course. How could I go somewhere on a weekend when I know that I needed the time to catch up with the lessons? I've been lagging behind. Oh, heaven knows how I am faring with Org Chem. 

Yet, I found myself signing up for the camp. Maybe it was because of Chelsea and Kuya's persistence. It amazes me how I still went ahead with the decision, knowing that my other blockmates won't be there.  I might be an extrovert but I fear solitude as well. 

It turned out to be such an amazing experience. In such a short span of time, I've listened to such wonderful stories. I've known so many new faces, heard their stories, and connected with them. Most of all, I've reconnected with Him, the one I haven't been paying attention to for some time already.

My heart listened. My mind wandered and realized so many things I think I cannot express and put all into writing. It would take me forever but allow me to share a few. 

• Despite everything, He would always be there. He is in the good and the bad, the laughter and the tears, the hellos and goodbyes, and even in the shades of gray. Still, sometimes, we question where He could be, especially when things don't go along what we expect them to be. It can take time. It can take some effort but eventually, you will see where He is staying all along and you will realize you weren't looking thoroughly enough.
• Who said being with Him is easy? It takes commitment and that alone is something that is never easy. Why? Well, being committed to something or someone entails one to become vulnerable. You give you word. You put all your efforts for the thing you are truly dedicated to. In doing so, you give out a part of yourself in your words, deeds, and time. Commitment is such a heavy task and it's no wonder most of us are afraid to say yes. Still, allow yourself to explore, to wander, and to discover. Maybe, just maybe, you shall find what it is you are ready to give up the world for.
• Time is limited. Always offer the world the best version of yourself. You never know when it will be your end.
• We live in search for our happiness. It might take a while. It might take you on a journey of crossroads and a dozen of setbacks. The roads are never easy. Still, in the end, you shall be the one to discover your true happiness. 

It was a weekend well spent. :) Indeed, thank you YFC-Ateneo for the wonderful experience. I shan't say more. I do not want to spoil the next set of campers of their fair share of realizations and experience. 

Well, what a way to kickstart my August! I must say, it is a choice I never and will never regret making :)